How Xiaogang in Dolphin Bay Reflect On Myself
Maybe one reason why Dolphin Bay is a hard rewatch was because, personal life kicked in. I could relate to Xiaogang except I'm no musical genius. Like Xiaogang I had to face an annoying foil, I fell for a cute mouse-like girl, played around with certain girls in fickleness and had a rival with a guy who looks like Xerya minus all the drama.
While the girl was a well-to-do girl girl and she was no love child but her mouse-like features always got me like how Tianbian's did to Xiaogang. She's wasn't pretty but I was really deeply into her. She wasn't pretty nor appealing but her kindness caught my heart. But at the same time, I always had my "sad love story" excuse. At the same time, I started treating her better because she was so innocent, how could I mistreat her further? She had indirectly showed me that my irrational outlook towards the opposite gender was wrong. Then I started to fall for her but it never worked out.
Those were the times I felt tears really fell down, not because I had an agenda, but because I really loved her. In the end, no matter how much I tried to be nice, I could not get her. Realizing she could not love me back romantically, I just had to let her go. I couldn't bear to force myself on her especially how her tears had affected me as well.